January 2010
life was suppose toalways feel this way.
i dont care what happens anymore.
i will make myself happy and i will pay attention to those who really need me.
im so excited for owl city!
and im so glad caitlins going :D
and my little sister.
and my mommy.
i really need to hop on this get a better job thing.
seriously.
btws.
FUCCCK YESSSS.
i wonder where they all goooo
i worked out today for realises and it felt good as shit.
but then i ate chinese.
but then i worked.
so i feel ok again.
but now i just ate.
but i needed it!
im pretty sure theres been two days this week i havent seen sara and thats kinda werid!
but thats ok :D
cause we loooove eachother<3
im so very tired.
bowl and bed?<3
whyyy
do i have the weirdest dreams.
this one had a fair! and i kept riding all the rides. and then there was some beast bird thing that was attacking, but it really wasn’t. and i think i had sex in a car. but not really. and i’m pretty sure everything was suppose to be bad but it was real fun and yay for a fair!
i dont fucking know. haha.
take care of yourself :)
thats how i feel....
I need a dream journal.
Maybe i should keep it beside my bed because I know I’ll forget.
But last night I was picking out what shoes to wear to run away from zombies and there were tidal waves and tsunamis and it was like final destination and resident evil.
Maybe sometimes I do know things are going to happen, but I also know they wont.
